I may have lost a *best* friend
They have been my friend for almost a decade. We knew each other because their crush was my best friend (whom I sort of lost, too). We took the same train home, and we shared a lot about each other.
They told me a lot about their home, love, aspirations, and dreams. We laughed together, ate together, and fought sometimes. It felt like we were super buddies! But apparently, you can hurt your best buddy too...
On this trip to a land not too far away, I brought along them. I planned this trip so that I could meet a girl that I liked, and hopefully we can become lovey-dovey lovebirds.
The first few days, we were quite happy, but as the clocked continued to turn, she started to feel as if she was an outsider in front of me and them. I finally asked her to be my girlfriend, and she did like me as well! Well I knew that from the start, that she would agree, but I wanted to see her and tell her in her face. They were quite happy at first, making jokes at us, and subtly giving us hints.
But they were pretty mean to me and the girl. I mean, being a third wheel must've been harsh, I mean, hellish, right?! So I thought it was only fair for them to release some pent up stress. They told me they didn't trust her, and that we wouldn't last long. I was not very happy, but I kept quiet anyway.
On the day before we leave her place and head home, they were walking very fast ahead of us. And they did not even turn their back once to check where we were. I was very upset, and I thought they wanted to be left alone, because it seemed so to me that time. So I walked down to the subway station with her. Foolishly I forgot they did not have a map to navigate the place.
While I enjoyed my sweet time with her, they were lost, afraid, and disappointed... disappointed in me for leaving them alone. They must have felt much, much more upset than I did, because they were left stranded in a foreign land by a best friend.
I was worried, yet I did not turn my back for them. I have made a cruel decision. When they showed up at the gate of the hotel crying, I know I have done something unredeemable.
I have no grounds to ask for forgiveness, but only hope that they may forget me, if they wish so.
And I hope all the best for them!
They told me a lot about their home, love, aspirations, and dreams. We laughed together, ate together, and fought sometimes. It felt like we were super buddies! But apparently, you can hurt your best buddy too...
On this trip to a land not too far away, I brought along them. I planned this trip so that I could meet a girl that I liked, and hopefully we can become lovey-dovey lovebirds.
The first few days, we were quite happy, but as the clocked continued to turn, she started to feel as if she was an outsider in front of me and them. I finally asked her to be my girlfriend, and she did like me as well! Well I knew that from the start, that she would agree, but I wanted to see her and tell her in her face. They were quite happy at first, making jokes at us, and subtly giving us hints.
But they were pretty mean to me and the girl. I mean, being a third wheel must've been harsh, I mean, hellish, right?! So I thought it was only fair for them to release some pent up stress. They told me they didn't trust her, and that we wouldn't last long. I was not very happy, but I kept quiet anyway.
On the day before we leave her place and head home, they were walking very fast ahead of us. And they did not even turn their back once to check where we were. I was very upset, and I thought they wanted to be left alone, because it seemed so to me that time. So I walked down to the subway station with her. Foolishly I forgot they did not have a map to navigate the place.
While I enjoyed my sweet time with her, they were lost, afraid, and disappointed... disappointed in me for leaving them alone. They must have felt much, much more upset than I did, because they were left stranded in a foreign land by a best friend.
I was worried, yet I did not turn my back for them. I have made a cruel decision. When they showed up at the gate of the hotel crying, I know I have done something unredeemable.
I have no grounds to ask for forgiveness, but only hope that they may forget me, if they wish so.
And I hope all the best for them!
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